Life...

This is one thing which has been coming and knocking at my doorstep as a question mark every now and then more frequently of late. So though why not talk abt it. Jus a lil bit.

What do we do our whole life? More often than not curse our present, look for future and praise our past. Isnt it? When you are in school, you want to be in college, when you are in college, you want to get out and be working and think about your school days. when you are working, you curse that and think about your college. So we are in continous search of something which we are leaving behind today. So when we cant see things what we think we want do we really want those things. I mean do we really know what we want? Do we really understand what we desire? Ya its kinda confusing. I know. But I just cant help but think, why is that we are always looking for something, we get one and then we look for another. May be my answer to life lies in this itself. This is life...Strange but True!

My immediate tendency here is to divulege from the topic here slightly and talk abt Satisfaction and Aspirations(dreams) but somehow I'll restrain myself from doing that. Thats one big topic and I think I'll write about it some other time.

Continuing on my previous line of thought. There are so many questions which are running in head waiting for an opening thru which they can come out. All at the same time.

Why does one has to keep proving himself/herself always. Is it more to himself or others? Why does he always has to seek for challenges. Isnt this a weaknes in itself. Looking for challenges so that he can prove it to others that he is good enough. Or is it more of himself to show that he is capable enough. I dont know and I dont think even the most honest of thoughts can confirm that. Is this because of weakness in himself/herself compelling him/her to look for challenges so that he/she can prove otherwise.

"I dont know", is may be the most difficult line for anybody to utter seriously. Its so diffcult to say this when some serious topic is being discussed. Even if we are not aware of something, we will chip in with a thing or two not knowing ourselves whether what we said did make some sense or not. I guess its human nature. But the thing I am not sure of is who are we trying to fool. Ppl around us or US. Again whom are we trying to prove a point to?

Most often than not what we think is always governed by others. Its never governed by us, What we want to think. We think what others want us to think, thinking what will they think.Most often its biased. Its never independent think. There is no freedom in even thinking.
I am not looking for an ans for all these. I dont think its practically possible to even do some of these things mentioned here. All of us go with the flow and may be this is life!


PS: This post has been written in the span of 3 days due to some conspicuous work reasons. Please ignore any irregularities and sudden blips. Wanted to write more but then decided some other time:-)